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Worrying in the waiting

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Soon Paul (my hubby), Lucie (my youngest stepdaughter) and I are going on holiday. Now, I’m one of those strange people who love planning a trip away almost as much as going on the holiday itself! I know, I’m a control freak!! I have loved finding the place to stay (complete with hot tub!), organising day trips, cleaning the house ready to go, packing for myself, the dogs and Paul, etc etc etc! But So quickly the joy of planning and preparing can become the ties of worry and the bonds of anxiety. The fun I have had planning have given way to worries about worming the dogs (really!?!?!) panic about when and how we will pick up Lucie and anxiety about making the house tidy for mum and dad house sitting (even though I know my mum doesn’t care and will tidy up for me anyway!) and so many other little things that have brought me down and exhausted me. Whilst pondering this, my mind turned to the road I am walking through infertility and once again I realised God’s goodnes

Fruitfully Barren

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Recently I heard  lady talking about her own struggle with infertility and something of what she said really resounded in my soul. She talked about how she has chosen to be  ‘Fruitfully Barren’ Fruitfully Barren Is sounds a bit like a paradox doesn’t it?! How can someone barren; i.e.         not producing or incapable of producing offspring; sterile         unproductive; unfruitful:         without capacity to interest or attract:        mentally unproductive; dull; stupid.         not producing results; fruitless:        destitute; bereft; lacking (usually followed by  of ): be fruitful; i.e.          producing  good results; beneficial; profitable: fruitful investigations.         abounding in  fruit , as trees or other plants; bearing  fruit  abundantly.        producing an abundant growth, as of  fruit  : fruitful soil; fruitful rain. But as I considered this further I came to see the beauty in it and I realised that being fruitfully barren is e