Friday, 10 March 2017


The past couple of days I have been away on retreat with other spiritual leaders from The Salvation Army across the North West England and North wales. It was a great time of fellowship and waiting on God. The retreat’s theme was ‘Beauty in chaos’ and in one of the sessions entitled ‘ beauty in chaotic me’ and we were encouraged to think about the question ‘who am I’

Who am I?

As I considered this I considered all the things I am, and I came to think of the positive and negative things that I am. I am a wife, a daughter, a step-mum, a minister, a friend etc. But I am also a coeliac, sometimes a grumpy wife, a lazy friend and a too-busy minister!!

My mind also turned to the things that I am not. I considered one of my biggest desires and the fact I am not a mum…yet! When I considered this, many feelings came rushing towards me.. Feelings of shame, guilt, loss, emptiness.


Then I heard a voice, the voice told me who I am, it told me I am

I AM Beloved (Jeremiah 31:3)
I AM A child of God (1 John 3:1)
I AM Delighted in (Zephaniah 3:17)
I AM Forgiven (1 Peter 2:24)
I AM Clean (Isaiah 1:18)
I AM Free! (Galatians 5:1)
I AM  a Co-heir with Christ (Romans 8:17)
I AM a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17)
I AM Set apart (1 Peter 2:9)
I AM A sweet aroma (2 Corinthians 2:15)
I AM NEVER ALONE (Deuteronomy 31:8)
I AM A masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10)
I AM Fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
I AM Bold (2 Corinthians 3:12)
I AM WHOLE IN CHRIST (Colossians 2:10)

Maybe today you need to cling hold to some of these truths. Maybe today you can only hear the voices telling you the things you’re not,or the things that you are that you’re not particularly proud of. Well I challenge you to listen to the voice of God and claim these verses as your own. 

Sunday, 5 March 2017

Busy being busy

It has been awhile since I have last posted a blog. This has been for many reasons, work has been busy, family life has been busy and I, a lover of routine, have found it difficult to get into the routine to sit down and write. 

Ministry is fabulous. At times it can be lonely, exhausting and demanding, but God is moving in The Salvation Army (can I get an amen?!) and he is certainly moving in The Salvation Army in Mold. We are seeing lives transformed, commitments made, prayers being answered and dreams being dreamed.  We are hearing testimony of God drawing people deeper and we are seeing new members Literally being drawn off the street. 
When God moves in a mighty way, the devil gets angry, and we have had our fair share of attacks; our brand new boiler has broken for the second time in three weeks and conflict has sprung up in unlikely places. But the most subtle way in which I have seen the devil attempt to work is by making people busy believing they can achieve in their own strength. This is something I have had to bring myself up short about recently. 

Over the past 6 months I have been slowly studying a book about prayer called ‘Fervent’ by Priscilla Shirer and it has reminded me that the devil will try and make us inactive by making us so buy, busy doing Gods work, but doing it on our own. 
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So, in recent weeks I have been intentionally coming before God and asking for his strength in my my weakness, and what a difference it makes! This week, with a retreat and some days of holiday with my husband, I am looking forward to once again putting Christ at the centre, going deeper in his love, and seeing the dreams in my heart become reality.

This song has been on my heart, maybe it will speak to someone today.