An Adventure in Ministry

  This week is Babyloss awareness week where many mums and dads remember their precious babies and reflect on their babyloss experience. Last week I had the absolute privilege to speak at our local baby loss awareness week remembrance service and it was such a special experience.  Six months ago, after 12 years of infertility, we discovered we were miraculously pregnant! Unfortunately a few weeks later we lost our precious and much loved child in a tragic and pretty traumatic way. It was the darkest time of my life, but through this time I learned a lot about grief, about myself and about God. This week seems a perfect time to share some of the lessons I learnt while walking through loss and I pray that it might be useful to someone else as they navigate grief. Don’t grieve alone When we found out we were pregnant, we shared our news with the world pretty quickly. While some people didn’t understand our choice to share so early on, it was the best thing we could ever do, as w...

Throughout my journey of infertility I have learnt so much. I have learnt that he holds me in the hardest time, I have learnt that he if faithful and will provide you with the love and support that you need to endure each trial. I have learnt that his timing is perfect, even when I just don’t get it!! However one thing I have really struggled with through this time, one small word that holds so much power, that small word is HOPE. In my darkest days I have failed to see any hope at all, and on my easier days I have simply been too afraid to have hope in case I might get my hopes up in order to have them dashed again by the familiar sight of a negative pregnancy test. The bible verse Proverbs 13:12 “Hope deferred makes the heart sick” was so true in some of the areas of my life, and although God was doing amazing things through my story and in my life, I still felt I was lacking in hope that God really was going to give me a child. Last October, a beautiful sis...