An Adventure in Ministry

  This week is Babyloss awareness week where many mums and dads remember their precious babies and reflect on their babyloss experience. Last week I had the absolute privilege to speak at our local baby loss awareness week remembrance service and it was such a special experience.  Six months ago, after 12 years of infertility, we discovered we were miraculously pregnant! Unfortunately a few weeks later we lost our precious and much loved child in a tragic and pretty traumatic way. It was the darkest time of my life, but through this time I learned a lot about grief, about myself and about God. This week seems a perfect time to share some of the lessons I learnt while walking through loss and I pray that it might be useful to someone else as they navigate grief. Don’t grieve alone When we found out we were pregnant, we shared our news with the world pretty quickly. While some people didn’t understand our choice to share so early on, it was the best thing we could ever do, as w...

  It is now the back to school season With photographs taken at doors And wide happy smiles in clothes still too big And kids who are babies no more! As a woman who longs to have children This time is so conflicting and tough For I long to be the one taking photos As I have waited for long enough! Each picture is ever so painful And sometimes it's so hard to breath As the grief and the sadness they overwhelm And I think that it might never leave. Each picture brings a great sense of longing And so many what-could-have-beens And I wonder what it must feel like To be the one inside that scene But I choose not to sit in the bitterness  Or the jealousy rising inside And thank God for each little miracle On earth or on the other side And I feel the Lord’s arms bringing comfort  And hear him whisper so clear That he knows just how I am feeling  And that he is drawing near.  And though the pain is still bubbling And the grief won't fully go away I know that I never wil...

I woke up this morning to the news of the terror attack in Nice in France with a very heavy heart. As I lay pondering the situation, I considered the recent stirring in my spirit about the things I see happening. You see, the attack in France was horrendous and with it comes the awakening of anger and sorrow But What about the other places where terroist attacks have happened? Not just to our Western ‘Friends’ but the absolute fear and devestation around the whole world. In those countries we may never even visit. Those incidents that the news doesn’t even bother to report! A very quick google search brought a worrying result… Sources told me that so far this MONTH, not including the recent terrorist attack in France. There have been nearly 80 ‘terrorist attacks’ in our world. (I’m not getting into the whole what is terrorism discussion, but you get the picture!) As I scrolled through this list that represents hundreds of lives and families, I was horrified to see ma...